so work hasn’t really been all that good.
i seem to be messing up alot, and the only time one of my supervisors talks to me is when i do something wrong.
actually, come to think about it, the only time i really talk to any of my coworkers is when i mess up or to keep myself from messing up.
i have a feeling that they’ll be glad to not have me around come january.
of course all this is exacerbated by the fact that i don’t have my meds.
i left them in the truck (where i usually keep them), and that’s down at home because it needs to get serviced. i’m using my sister’s car until tomorrow night.
and i’m up here, trying to keep my head above water without them.
i don’t really know what to do, because some really bad decisions are looking like they’re easier to follow through with than the good ones right now. it doesn’t help that i don’t know many people here, and the people that i do know are the same people that i don’t have the best relationshipw with to begin with.
and to make things worse? i ran into one of the resident directors from curry at work today. not only was he a resident director, he was the one that had to deal with me when i had to be sent to the hospital back in february. talk about awkward.
and, to top it all off, i found out that i only worked 20 hours over the past week and a half. 20! i found this out when i picked up my check, and it came out to $149. luckily i’ll be working 40 hours between now and next saturday, so that should double it. hopefully even more, since payday is every two weeks and i’ll be able to get more hours between the 6th and the 12th.
and so, while i’ve only started at this job, i’ll be looking for another job on the side.
and looking for reasons to pick the good decisions over the bad.